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there she was,on her bed.her right hand on her side and the other one gripping a cell phone.she could hear the needle of her fake cartier wristwatch ticking,endlessly ticking.drifting itself continuously from one second to the next.here eyes were glued to the ceiling,her body positioned in the same spot it was since ten minutes ago,and her mind,still fiddling over nothing.she then grabs a pink see-through shawl on the corner of her bed and puts it on top of her face.now the ceiling becomes all pink with little dots all over."this is nice" she thought.the spinning of the fan made a moving effect on her wall,which made the situation even nicer.she closed her eyes for a second.she wasn't going to sleep nor was she even tired,she was just engaging her thoughts into the serenity of the moment.suddenly somehow,the serenity she was feeling led her to an uncomfortable,sad feeling.she wished she hadn't done this alone.she wished she'd share this moment with someone.she wished there was someone on the bed beside her whispering things in her ear.things a lover would whisper to their significant other.crap.she knew it was all crap.to avoid futher unwanted thoughts going on in her mind,she pulls the shawl off her face and got off her bed.she heads to where her radio was placed.next to the window.she intentionally puts the radio there so she could turn it up real loud on nights she overhears loud arguments from the couple next door.just to annoy the heck of them.as if to say,shut-up-and-go-to-sleep in a different way.yet of course,it never really worked.she turned on the radio to distract her mind then drifted herself to the mirror.

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