raya

after constant shoe hunting sessions that led to numerous headaches,finally,i have found the right pair of high-heels for raya.well,i don't think that it is actually 'the one',but i just grabbed whatever that was in front of me.raya is just in two days,so i might as well just buy it to avoid further regrets.besides,they're just shoes,it's not like i'll be going into people's houses with them on, right?(nak sedapkan hati).

oh.raya is just 2 days away.surprising isn't it how fast time flies nowadays?i couldn't even remember what i did everyday for the past 3 weeks,and now,raya is near all of a sudden.last year's first syawal,trips to open houses,endless rendang,ketupat and lontong consumptions are still fresh in mind.even boxes and boxes of last year's untouched biskut rayas are still under the kitchen counter(different story heh).that's just how time works right now i guess,quickly slipping away right before our eyes.not that i dread that raya is near but it's kind of sad that ramadhan is coming to its end,and will only be coming back next year.but i am still looking forward for raya and all the joy that it might bring,nonetheless.

so let's enjoy the goodness of raya,get fat and observe how quickly this one's going to pass and be surprise again when it ends (only if you're not busy lahap-ing raya food of course ;p)

selamat hari raya,maaf zahir dan batin.

raya 2003

moodswings

i dont know why,but i have found my moodswings to be in complete haywire these days.i could be laughing and smiling at one time and completely down at the next.first i say i like this and then i feel like i don't.pening doh.and this other thing, people can't ask me to do things without me whining to myself inside at certain times.i know,i don't understand myself too.its not like all i do now is yell at people,nothing like that.i'll usually just keep it to myself but the feeling is really uncomfortable.

nak cakap ade kekurangan,alhamdulillah semua cukup.aku patut bersyukur dah skarang.

i think i might have just been too use to this.imagine 9 months of not having to wake up to school blues everyday like i use to.sounds heavenly isn't it?but im afraid this heavenly feeling has taken itself too overboard.i've become too pampered by this luxury,and junk has definitely piled up in me.i am polluted.i've become childish.oh and pms,that should also be the cause to this.about that,i can't say anything.womanhood.sorry.but i know this selfishness will dissipate shortly.it will.

somebody,please pinch me.

short and sweet

i think girls look cool in boyish haircuts.i've read from somewhere that boyish haircuts actually makes a woman's face look more feminine because it brings out our features.however,let's face it,not every one of us can pull off a boyish haircut perfectly can we?well,not unless you have an incredibly gorgeous face and the perfect bone structure.here are some people whom i think totally,totally nailed the do

beautiful women of the earlier days:twiggy,mia farrow,edie sedgwick,audrey hepburn

most women feel intimidated in cutting their hair that short.some think they might look like a boy if they do,others just prefer keeping them long.looks and flawless bone structure aside,to those of you who who have done it or are currently having this style,i salute.

ouch

me and a friend ran through a topic about accidents a couple of days back.okay,maybe this shouldn't be called as an 'accident'.maybe it could be properly considered as a slight injury.and so it made me remembered about my first childhood injury and made me want to write this up.it dated back many years ago,i was 5 i think.it wasn't major or anything heck,it was just a teeny weeny one.the incident happen when i was coming out of my house,with a mug in one hand.my intention was to hand the mug over to my mom who was sitting outside.but then suddenly halfway through,i think i tripped and the mug fell on my other hand and hurt my jari kelingking.i remember the doctor making a gesture with his jari kelingking telling me to try and straighten mine,"cube buat macamni",but i couldn't.it really did hurt.and the next thing i know,was that the finger had an ice-cream like stick(only bigger) being placed under it and then it was wrapped.thankfully it wasn't broken,just the hard knock made it very painful.just 2 days afterward,i had the bandage removed already.i couldn't really remember which hand it was though,but right now,my right jari kelingking is definitely straighter then the other,i can tell.

my other childhood physically painful experiences also involves tripping down a big drain which produced a wound on my knee,getting accidentally knocked by my own big brother on the forehead when i was 6,and it bled.oh and this one still leaves a scar heh.countless,bike-ride falling(haven't we all gone through it?).ok, this is a little funny,but iwhen i was in standard 2,i got an earring stuck to my ear.yes,stuck.i pressed the back and the front part too tightly that when i wanted to take it off,it wouldn't budge till it developed a nanah.i didn't told my mom until one day my mom found it out herself and straighly brought me to the clinic.the earrings took 4 nurses to be removed i am not kidding.of course i did stay still.i yelled out never-ending screams eveytime they touched my ear i did.after that,i swear i wouldn't wear gold earrings anymore.

nothing big,just thought of writing it all out.it can be a constant reminder for me.but let me just hope and pray to god that none of it or anything much more serious would happen ever,ever again in the future.nauzubillah :)

trouble sleeping

aku ada masalah dengan tidur awal ataupun tido itself.tidur awal dalam case aku tu antara pukul 12-2 pagi.tu kira awal la tu.sebab sejak habis sekolah ni memang time tido aku kalau bukan pukul 3,pukul 4.kenapa aku consider it sebagai masalah?sebab 1st, setiap kalau aku try nak tido awal,mesti fail.2nd,aku ada this habit of suka melambat-lambatkan tido aku.walaupun mata aku dah rase mengantuk.kadang-kadang dah siap baring,selimut dah tarik ,tiba-tiba tak boleh tido pulak.rasa macam ada je benda lain lagi nak buat.rasa macam rugi tiba-tiba kalau tido awal.selalunya kalau jadi macam ni,aku mesti amik diary aku kat book rack sebelah katil and mulalah tulis benda-benda yang aku rasa nak tulis.lepastu masa tido aku yang patutnye pukul 1 or 2 tadi,dah berganjak(cheh berganjak) sampai pukul 3 ke 4.semalam pun sama,mata memang dah stat mengantuk masa pukul 2,3 macamtu tapi gatal je tangan nak online la ape semua.ade je bende nak tengok online, kan?youtube la,blog orang la,macam-macam.masa siang takde pulak nak tengok semua tu.semalam aku habis online pukul 3.aku masuk bilik dan lepas pusing sini pusing sana kat atas katil barulah dapat tido.masetu dah pukul 4.pukul 5 macamtu aku terjaga balik ,sebab ayah aku ketuk pintu untuk sahur.selalunya aku tak bangun tapi semalam selera ada pulak(spaghetti mak aku,maneboleh tak makan :p).jadi, kira aku sempat tido untuk sejam je.lepas makan tu,takkan nak terus tido kan?memangla ngantuk and aku patutnye masuk bilik dan terus tido,tapi tak,aku degil jugak pegi lepak dalam bilik parents untuk tengok tv kejap.masa tu tengah ada cerita "waking the dead".jennifer conneli belakon tapi selepas setengah jam baru aku figure out yang cerita tu macam agak tak logik,aku terus keluar bilik parents aku.masa tu dalam pukul 6 camtu,lepastu masuk bilik aku sembahyang kejap.lepas sembahyang boleh lagi aku dilly dally dalam bilik?padehal mate ngantuk ni.sempat lagi tangkap2 gambar sikit,aduh.aku rasa dalam pukul 6.45 macamtu barulah aku betul-betul tido.siap mimpi sekolah lama.heh.pukul 1.30 tadi barulah aku bangun lepastu dengar bunyi pintu rumah,mak aku balik dari kerja.hmm aku rasa aku macamni sebab aku terlalu free pastu aku pun macam take advantage of free time ni.kalau dulu time sekolah tak pulak macam ni...ok ade la tapi paling lewat pun pukul 2.tak lewat kan pukul 2 untuk budak sekolah?heh.bila tido lewat,keesokan harinya memang la penat gile kan.aku tak kesah tido lambat,kalau tak tido langsung pun takpe kot.kalau la tak tido tak buat kite penat kan bagus?aku rasa aku ni nocturnal.a'aa tu panggilan untuk binatang tapi kalau manusia panggil "night person" ataupun "eveningness".(source:wikipedia) ataupun in other words, orang yang lebih aktif di waktu malam.tapi kalau habit aku yang suka-lambatkan-tido-eventho-dah-ngantuk ni panggil ape pulak?dah stat college nanti memang tak aa nak buat macamni.ye,takkan punye.next year aku akan tuka routine aku,yeap.aku akan make sure aku tido pada time yang sepatutnye and make sure aku dapat tidur yang secukupnya and tak akan berjaga sampai pukul 3 atau 4 lagi.haha ye la tu.you wish sherrin you wish.

2.47 a.m

today's to do list:
-make dad's birthday card

smile

i should be really thankful of everything right now.yeah,i should :)