this is dope

can i have all?the clothes,that is.

merdeka cum ramadhan

i can't believe ramadhan is only 3 days away.time is moving way too fast.it feels like last year's ramadhan was only yesterday,and now before you know it,this year's is already arriving and i am excited.i really like the suasana it's different.recalling all my bulan puasa histories,i think i really missed 2002/2003's because bulan puasa fell on the first week of school holidays.so i got a lot of free time in my hands and stayed up really late until sahur and wake up the next day at 5 or 6 in the evening.it was ridicolous,but i was 12,who could blame me?i even got my cousin to stay with me for 2 weeks so it was a lot of fun.but i really hope i get to make a lot of good deeds and earn lots of pahalas this year.ok, i am being very undeniably cliche right now.as we know,bulan puasa is a holy month and it doesn't come twice,so why not make full use of it.nothing about ramadhan is ever boring.well of course you get hungry and thirsty,but that's the whole point.isn't it?no question about that.

knowing that ramadhan is on its way,precisely on the 1st of september(which is next monday),i almost forgot that our national day is making its way also.the odd thing is,this year i see less of those decorations of jalur gemilangs on lamposts or roadsides.even on cars.i don't know about other states,but that's what i see around shah alam.have the government gone totally nonachalant about it?but then again,maybe we all are.home's feeling cold since morning i guess it's the weather.i've been wearing my sweater since last night like its freaking winter.

happy merdeka & selamat berpuasa,people.

lazy eye

i am really liking this song by silversun pickups called lazy eye
(the first 10 second goes a little low,but it'll get louder afterwards)

girlz day out

went to pavillion last friday with my friends,at last we got to catch up.i kinda miss them already.kfc was our first destination after we arrived in bb,ordered a snack plate and as usual,i only manage to finish up one over two of the chicken.i guess its fair since i did have a scorchingly painful ulcer on the tip of my lower lip that day.so yeah,imagine that.done talking and eating,we lingered around sg wang for a short while,and then went straight to pavillion.heh its funny how we seem to head to the same shops everytime we go out.tpi last2 tak bli pape pun.me,that is.nothing really caught my eye.well at first i saw the sandals at forever and was really close to buying it but then i changed my mind,afraid i would bump into something more useful and prettier later.but no i did not until the end of the day(well minus the kfc and a slurpee that i later bought).seperti biase,i had 3 cramp moments which all 3 occured at different places and it sucks when u get cramps outside right?because u can't like sit down all of a sudden and stretch your legs.especially when you're at the bintang walk oh no.so you just kinda have to bare with it for a while,and walk funny.at heading back time we had to berhimpit in the train like we always do,and by that time it was already 8 pm.i kinda like being in trains at night,it makes me feel like im in daniel powter's bad day video or something,heh.at about 9 we reached shah alam.before going back we gave each other hugs and it almost made me teary eyed and stuff,almost.i am usually not like that but somehow i did feel a little sad.i dont know.maybe cause they'll be leaving on sunday.overall,the day went fine and that night for the first time in many months i slept early,pukul 11 lebih.also for the first time in many months my attempt in sleeping early on a tiring day was a success.

sh_t

due to excessive boredom and the lack of socialization for these whole 3 months,
i have literally turned into an awfully boring person.thank you.

I

The time was exactly 1 o'clock in the morning,what use to be the smell of her room has now been replaced into a new and overwhelming scent.Filling up each and every corner of the room was the smell,of tobacco.A box of dunhill 14's was lying on the bed.Two cigarette buds left inside it were both convincingly jerking out,but in different levels.Between her fingers was what happens to be the 12th.She inhaled,promising herself that it would be the last just like she did to the 11 buds before it.It has been six months since she first started smoking.Right after her father left for another woman,she began buying cigarettes and hasn't stopped since.Her mom knows,but she never really said anything.She didn't really understood as to why she started smoking but she thought its just an easy escape she could get to anytime,anywhere.Or perhaps a show of anger.Reluctantly,after the last inhalation she pressed the bud onto her candle holder and heads to the window.Throws out all the dusts from the candle holder,and left the window open to release the smell thats been lingering.She then got on her bed,pulls her blanket and tried to go to sleep.Her eyes were wide shut but her mind,well,was just wasn't fully ready for the next morning.